well everybody heres the news I just turned 14 and I wish I was 4 perrty pithice don't you think. I just can't seem to grasp the conpect of being a teenager I mean you would think that since I look up to my 16 almost 17 year old cousin that I know what its like to a teenager but I just didn't take notes because I didn't think that being a teenager was more hard then being just well a,a kid. My few weeks of being teenager was been the wrost rollacoster of my life I just wish I could get off. I reason y I say all this stuff is because well for the past two weeks my mom and I have been well basicly hating each other and I mean that. Its just all the twist and turns of being a teenager I just wish I could make her happy and be the daughter she has always wanted and not some lazy dumb child that can't even get a A in PRE - albra I wish I was more like her and not my dumb mean ugly dad. I no I look almost idendly to her but only on the outside and not on the inside. You c all I care about is my future and not my preasent but I sometimes think that I need to care more about whats in front of me and not was in the future because at the rate I'm at I'm not going to have a future. well time to hit the sheets and maybe get hit by my mom no joke. nighty night

Well the best thing that happend is got a note in my locker thursday and friday I think it was from jared but I'm not sure god I hope he is soooo cute. I know I need to focus on my studys but this guy is the one for me cute sweet and loveable like a puppy LOL. My qustion is does chelese know about this I have no Idea god I hope that she is okay with this. I mean shes my friend I would really be upset if she got her hart broken it would be a shamble and not a good think. I have feelings for jared and I have never had feelings about a guy. He's my frist guy I have feelings about. I mean he hates my guts though or he is just to shy to talk to me Awwwww that is so sweet. Thats all for now signing out

I know sometimes people some time mothers and daughters get mad but me and my mom just flat out can't get along and well I'm baiscly cause the problem. I feel as if I get in trouble more then any kid in the state of oklahoma and I guess its mostly my falt. I really don't want to end up like my mom and her dad just never getting along I want to find some way to fix thirteen years of haterd and not just keep it running. I just want to live a normal life and not a complated one. I just want to wake up and feel good until I go to bed the next night I don't want to feel bitter.

Well you could say my day was just about boring then ever nothing much happend today but a staff meeting wich I sang at and well that all that happend today and I well friday I see dad and he just wants to have Chirstmas with me and well since there is only thirteen more days tell Chirstmas I still have to buy mom and persent and your not going to beleave what see wants a foot spa and hay that sounds like a perrty good idea and I may use it a couple of times LOL hay a girl needs to soak her feet after a hard day at school double LOL and hay thats what I call relaxing. I hope my dad buys me somthing total awsome like a digatl camara hay that would be tight. Rachel is still a pain as always and hay sompeople never change and well thats all thats going on in my life. Santa is on his way to leave some gifts for the good girls and boys and well I know I have nothing to worry about I have been good all year so I have nothing to worry about and hay I never been on the naughty list well at least I don't think no never LOL!!! Well thats all thats going on today. PAL(peace and love) and a merry chirstmas.

Well it doesn't take a gunius to figure this out. I'm the target at this new school again today at lunch a freak put a piece of a browney in my water and luckly I did not drink. But my mortly any did the wrost posiable thing she said that I did and told every little person she passed.I would love to kick her A** till it bleeds. All that she witch cares about is making my life more upseting then it is. This school is more worse then my old one. God I wish that she would get hit by a bus and then she would be out of my life for good. Well maybe just hurt her back and then I would laugh at her and then we would see who was having the last laugh HA HA HA. Well I guess I have to face the crowd again tomorrow and get laugh at. I guess I should be used to this but I'm not I feel so angry with her. I need to see Ms hamltion and talk to her about and maybe she well be able to help me through this sich and maybe make this year a little better. I have no clue whats it store for me tomorrow or what I world brings me maybe a bucket full of luck.Thats all there is for now. Signing out for tonight. PAL (peace and love)